Monday, June 7, 2010


“Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.”

Its only taken me about 8 years, 4 counselors, 1 suicide attempt, and numerous slepless nights to figure it out, but I finally have. I spent so much of my life trying to find my way to happiness. But every time that I have finally believed I found it, I was only given disappointment when I realized it was gone again. Ive finally come to the conclusion that nobody ever really gets to happiness and has it the rest of their life. There is always another bill, more stress. None of it ever goes away for good. So many people spend too much time trying to find happiness in its entirety as if it is something that can be acquired..its not. We spend too much time thinking, all I need is the nice car, or the big house...or the wonderful husband and ill be happy finally. What we dont think about is, thank God I have feet to walk, a roof over my head, and friends or family that are there for me. We take for granted the things we do have. Ive done it. Everyone has. It wasnt until these last two years I have learned to just be happy with all that I have. I have learned to take a closer look in my life, in the friends and family I have, the choices ive been given, the path my life has taken and realize that I have been truly blessed in my life. Im happy. It doesnt mean I cant cry, or that I wont scream in frustration. It doesnt even mean I have to smile everyday or that I cant be grumpy! It just means that regardless of anyhting that is thrown my way, I can understand that I will be ok and that I am gonna be happy no matter what. :)